Like It Was In the Beginning It Will Be At the End is a prayer book that includes digital art work that encompasses a hope of healing intergenerational trauma, as well as metabolizing the archival memory that resides in the body.

My work feels, it smells, it shakes, it falls, it tumbles, it runs, it stands still, it screams, it hides, it crawls, it breathes, it breathes, it breathes, it dies, and breathes, it lives, it lives forever, and it lives before, it bends, it flies, it splits, it teleports, it mourns and is born. Over and over again. The medium is heart, bones, flesh, voice, blood, memory. Memory. It is inspired by the challenging of guilt and shame, to witness, witness, when it is beautiful and reluctantly witness when it’s not (and the striving to witness alone). Inspired by death and becoming, processes that never seem to end. Transformations that are deemed ugly, transformations that confuses, transformations that blur boundaries. To recount what happened, what did not, what has yet to. Memory. To archive the gross, the grit, the snot and swollen eyes, the hyperventilated exhales. The capturing of survival and cultivation of life once again. To archive the smell of wet dirt, the feeling of the wind gliding through the empty space of our fingers. My work is for me but also for my elders, the babies in my life, my ancestors, those who have supported me and seen my whole person. This work came from processing a grief, the grief of not becoming a big sister, the grief of not having a sibling in my life, the grief of not knowing where to put one's love. But grief is such a multifaceted experience, where there is also laughter in between the cries, reminding us that we are still continuing.